The last time I had ‘botox’ (botulinum toxin) injected into my face was 5th May 2022. I had 3 areas done (forehead lines, vertical frown line/s and crow’s feet) and it cost £220 with a 2-week review included.
Line-smoothing, anti-wrinkle, muscle relaxant injections are terms most of us are familiar with and having tried botox (and another version of toxin; azzalure) three times over the last few years it really does work – my forehead was very smooth indeed.
At my very first appointment back in 2021, I was asked how much movement I wanted; part-frozen, fully-frozen, a tiny bit frozen, arrgghhhh – I opted for first one, part-frozen. The idea of looking fully frozen made me shiver. I have been accused of being cold-hearted in the past, but I didn’t want to look it! In all seriousness, I went for the part-frozen one because I didn’t want to look too, y’know, Hollywood, or too smooth. I also didn’t want people to notice I had paid to de-wrinkle my face.
I kept telling myself I had done this just for me. I only told a couple of people that I had been to see an aesthetic nurse and looking back the notion that this was a treat for myself now feels slightly weird. Was I doing it for me? Society? My husband? The camera? I still don’t know the answer, but I do know that much of my decision to get botox was because a lot of my friends were starting to get it. I didn’t want to be the only wrinkly one.
The other reason I had toxin injected into my face was because I frown a lot, I always have. You only need to see photos of me as a young child and the scowl was evident. When I was 24, a guy said to me as I stomped past him on a busy London street, “cheer up luv it might never ‘appen!” and I was taken aback. At that particular moment I was feeling good and was just on my way to get something to eat during a work lunch-break. That frown never really left me and I noticed it more and more as I entered my forties. I remember feeling quite shocked when I saw photos of myself talking or doing someone’s make-up, because this is when it really looked bad/obvious – actually I like the word obvious better.
At 40 I started wearing glasses (oh hi midlife and holding a menu at arms length) and my frown softened. Perhaps it was because I was struggling to focus that my frown became such a constant on my face, or perhaps it was the fact that I was not 24 anymore and ageing (and frowning) is a part of life. A bit of both I think.
Years of frowning has given me a vertical line in-between my eyes and I used to hate it. It is slightly off-centre which makes doing my eyebrows hard – I mean, where is the middle!? I sometimes catch sight of the reflection of my face in a window on a sunny day and I am fully frowning just like little Lucy did. Only now, there are more lines and slightly crumpled eyelids reminding me that I am 47, not 4, or 24 when I was satisfyingly wrinkle-free. As a friend of mine recently said to me “youth is wasted on the young” and he was, and is, correct.
I am now 47 and botox-free. My face moves and frowns as it should, which doesn’t mean to say I am fully comfortable with it – but for now I am staying away from the injectable toxins.
Here are the reasons why I stopped having botox at 46-years-old:
- I started to feel like I looked like everyone else
- I think nice hair is the best way to look more youthful
- You can’t smooth your hands!
- Society is obsessed with women looking smooth
- Society is obsessed with women’s age
- A high proportion of women are becoming obsessed with looking wrinkle-free
- The cost (nearly £1k a year)
- It wears off too quickly
- Smooth forehead/baggy neck!
- Botox often leads to more aesthetics – filler, toxin top-ups, profhilo and so on
- I don’t want my girls (13 and 10) to think wrinkle-free is the way to go
- I sat next to two 25-year-old women the other day and they spoke about botox and aesthetics for 20-mins including all the things they were going to have done and I felt a sense of sadness for them
- My mother is 80 this month and hasn’t had any ‘work’ done and I think she looks lovely
- I often do TV appearances and I have an expressive face – anti-wrinkle injections stop expression
- After years of not being nice to myself (hello low-confidence) I now actually like the real me
- A lot of women I know have botox and something in me makes me not want to follow the crowd
- I am a trained make-up artist and clever make-up can temporarily hide lines and flaws
- I am 47 and I actually think I look okay
I am not saying I will never have botox again, I might or I might not. All I know is that for now, it is a no.
I’ve written on the blog before about the botox I had for bruxism (teeth grinding/clenching) which wasn’t very good actually, but with the right practitioner I would try this again to relieve pain in my jaw. This would be for medical reasons rather than vanity ones.
I have to say that the person who did my anti-wrinkle injections here in Lincolnshire is very very good and I would recommend her to anyone looking for a trusted person. In addition to that, I do not judge anyone for their aesthetic treatments – I genuinely think that everyone needs to do what they need to do and no matter what that is, I won’t judge.
Have you had botox? Have you tried it and like me, decided to hold back for now? I’d love to hear from you.
Lucy aka Geriatric Mum
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